ABOUT THE NURSE IN OB-GYN/ The lobby is packed with expecting women, fidgeting husbands who puU toddlers up onto their laps, whUe I wait, empty. me down the long corridor framed with pictures of babies' birthdays, diagrams of each trimester's developing, weary photographed mothers, scrawled notes of thanks When my name is caUed, she walks pinned to the walls. Later, this same woman pumps my arm, fingers my wrist, asks how old I am now, as if the question itself will edge forward the hands of my body's need. I swear she mumbles old enough, leaning all of herself toward me--her child-bearing hips, her healthy stoic frame, her earrings that scrape along her clavicle--across the desk to where I perch. Before I can answer she wonders aloud whether Tm going to fUl that prescription again. She doesn't know I rehearsed this part with my dose of morning coffee. Even thought to pour a shot of whiskey deep in the cup. Some proof of my resolve. She doesn't know something keeps collapsing. Hasn't she ever had nightmares of children she's never conceived: hands scrubbed to bone, reaching through an incubator's latex mouth, past feeding tubes The Missouri Review ·
The Missouri Review – University of Missouri
Published: Oct 5, 2003
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